Ik schommel, en u kent het

What were you wanting?
I just want to say
Don't ever change now baby
And thank you
I don't think we will meet again
And you must leave now
Before the sunrise
Above skyscrapers
The sin and
This mess we're in and
The city sun sets over me

I finally buckled under the pressure. I have added more pictures of myself.
If you wish to view them, go here, and please don't laugh to loud.

I have owned PJ Harvey's newest album,
Stories From The City, Stories From The Sea, since the week it came out. I had
listened to it when I first got it and then put it away without much thought. I broke
it back out about a week ago. And I was amazed I so quickly shelved it. What a
amazing album. Brilliant lyrics, and a perfect presentation. A must have!!!

Weekend recap
Tis a good weekend. On Friday night I meet some friends at Martuni’s for cocktails.
And let me tell you they make a kick ass sour apple martini. Then was off to the Pilsner.
Saturday I finally made it for lunch at the St. Francis Creamery. Which I had tried to
make it to twice. Once closed, second was in the middle of closing. Saturday night had
a string of parties to attended. First a couple of us met at the Powerhouse bar in Soma.
After the adorable bartender bought us shots and then topped off our half empty drinks.
Now that is a bartender I can stand behind! Then we were off to the Patisserie Café
for a fab B-day party. The group were made mostly up by cool hip artsy burning man going
people. Fun ensued, drinks were a flowing and yummy food was feasted upon. After
meeting and greeting there we headed to the Squid list 6th anniversary party in the deep,
Mission. The Squid list is a email news group for the hip and happening art, party
group for San Francisco. There we got to see a performance from Attaboy and Burke.
They are a space age techno pop band if they had a baby with the Beastie Boys.
Sunday got to hang out with Cathey from PDX.
Played around with her new Titanium Powerbook. Then it was off to bed for me.

The Simpsons on shoes shopping...
Marge: You need something nice, something you can wear to church.
Lisa: But Jesus didn't wear shoes he wore sandals.
Homer: Well maybe if he had better arch support they wouldn't have been able to
catch him.

Can you hear them, The helicopters, I'm in New York
No need for words now, We sit in silence
You look me, In the eye directly
You met me, I think it's wednesday
The evening, The mess we're in

Ok I am so in love with Jonathan Ive!!!
Not only is he adorable. But he was also head designer on the old and new iMac,
G4, and the G4 Cube, TPowerbook, both iBooks,
and the everloved iPod.
Very cool and very cute!

Deck the halls I’m young again
I’m you again
Racing turtles the grapefruit is winning
Seems I keep getting this story
twisted so where’s Neil when you need him
Deck the halls it’s you again
It’s you again
Somewhere someone most know the ending
Is she still pissing in the river now
Heard she’d gone moved into a trailer park

So sure we were on something
Your feet are finally on the ground

Datura

get out of my garden

passion vine, texas sage, indigo spires saliva, confederate jasmine,
royal cape plumbago, arica palm, pygmy date plam, snow on the mountain,
pink powderpuff, datura, crinum lily, st. chrstopher’s lily, silver dollar eucalyptus,
white african iris, katie’s charm rueillia, variegated shell ginger, florida coontie,
datura, ming tea, sword fern, dianella, walking iris, chocolate cherries allamanda,
awabuki viburnum

is there room in your heart
for you to follow your heart
and not need more blood
from the tip of your star

get out of my garden

walking iris, chocolate cherries allamnada, awabuki viburnun, natal plum,
black magic ti, mexican bush sage, gumbo lumbo, golden shrimp, belize shrimp,
senna, weeping sabicu, golden shower tree, golden trumpet tree, bird of paradise,
come in, variegated shell ginger, Datura, lonicera, red velvet costus, xanadu philodendron,
snow queen hibiscus, frangipani, bleeding heart, persian shield, cat’s whiskers,
royal palm, sweet alyssum, petting bamboo, orange jasmine, clitoria blue pea,
downy jasmine, Datura, frangipani

dividing Canaan
piece by piece
o let me see
dividing Canaan

call me evil call me tide is on your side
anything that you want
anybody knows you can conjure anything
by the dark of the moon boy
and if you keep your silence silencer
on you’ll talk yourself right into a job
out of a hole, into my bayou

Standin’ on a corner in Winslow Arizona
and I’m quite sure I’m in the wrong song
2 girls 65 got a piece tied up in the back seat
“honey we’re Recovering Christians”

in the Springtime of his voodoo
he was going to show me spring

B6 d t k++ s+ f++ i- o x e l+ c--

I don't know
Only God knows where the story is
For me, but I know where the story begins
-Mary J. Blige

It is amazing how the rollercoaster ride (no pun, sorry inside joke) of sad,
angry, happy, etc. Can all become a moment of clarity. And then ease.

One of the funnest sites I have seen in a long time.
ghettopimpin.com
Check out the eavesdroppin section. I was rolling on the floor laughing!!!
Via Philo

Ok so I hung out at a cafe, last night after work for a few hours to work on my book.
Got lots of writing done! Yeah! But... I have no laptop. So now I have to endeaver
to read what I wrote and type it. That really sucks!!!
If someone feels sorry for me they can go here and buy me a laptop.

Ernie on the death of Dave Thomas.
"So you know how Biker's pour malt liquor on their fallen comrades graves?
Does that mean I can pour a Frosty on... oh, nevermind."

Humpty Dumpty was PUSHED!!!!!!!

Wow it is already the 8th and I didn't post my resolution.
My resolution for 2002 is: Diversify
Meaning I am not going to let my self get stuck in the ruts of 2001.
Going to the same old places, doing the same stuff. But get out
there and try new and different things. Diversification, sound good
to me!!!

I want to be

I feel

We built this city on rock and roll...

Jonno, Victor, Tin Man, Tim.All have been having a blogger
conversation on the number of sexual partners they have been with. Hmmm... Wow!
Now that brings up a conversation I had not to long ago with a St8 girlfriend of mine.
She was shocked at my amount. A couple other friends were also in this conversation, and
were not shocked at my totals. I am sure, that I am getting close to the high triple digits. And
I don't think that is uncommon in the gay world. And I know for a fact it isn't uncommon
in the SF gay world. I am not ashamed or shocked by my totals. I have lived a wild and
crazy life. Now some would wonder if gay men of the world and I have a problem. Now
Jonno has come up with a self-administered test. And here it is.

• Do you find yourself sucking cock by yourself, or first thing in the morning?
  
• Do you occasionally suck cock after a disappointment, a quarrel,
  or when work is difficult?
  
• When sucking cock in a social situation, do you try to sneak a few extra
  partners when others will not notice?
  
• Are there certain occasions when you feel uncomfortable if cock is not available?
  
• Are you able to handle more cock than you did when you first started having sex?
  
• Have you recently noticed that you cannot handle as much cock as you used to? 
  
• Do you sometimes feel guilty about sucking cock? 
  
• Are you irritated when family or friends discuss your cocksucking? 
  
• Do you try to avoid family or friends while you are sucking cock? 
  
• Do you often find that you wish to continue sucking cock after your friends
  say you've had enough?
  
• Have you often failed to keep the promises you made about cutting down
  on your cocksucking?
  
• Do you sometimes have the "shakes" in the morning and find that it helps
  to suck a little cock
  
• Do you sometimes suck cock for several days at a time? 
  
• After periods of cocksucking, do you sometimes see or hear things
  that aren't there?
  
• Do you envy people who can suck cock without getting into trouble?
  
• Do people often tell you that they can smell cock on your breath?
  
• Do you tell yourself you can stop sucking cock anytime you want to?
  
• Have you ever felt your life would be better if you didn't suck cock?

Hey, it is time for the 2002 Weblog Awards. So go forth and vote.

HOT HOT HOT

I have been invited to my first non-family gay Super Bowl
get-together. I just don't know what to think about that...

Ok I am a Mac geek what can I say!

Scans of new flat iMac

Damn I got booted from the webcast and couldn't get on again.
Now I am on MacRumors that is updating their sites with
up to the minute news.

So cool!!! Sitting here at work, on my computer. Working and listening
to a live stream of Steve Jobs keynote speech at MacWorld only 4
blocks away at The Moscone Center. So cool!!!

Last night hanging out with friends at the Pilsner Inn, here in SF.
A poll got passed around. And here are the answers:

Pilsner Poll 1/4/02: Results

1) My preferred flavor of yogurt

• 2- Candy Apple (5.7%)
  
• 1- Barth (2.6%)
  
• 7- Something Fruity (20%)
  
• 8- I am not a Lez (22.9%)
  
• 8- Strawberry Banana (22.9%)
  
• 9- Vanilla (25.7%)
  

• 20- Yes (64.5%)
  
• 11- No (35.5%)
  

• 5- Yes (16.1%)
  
• 17- No (54.8%)
  
• 9- I have never had a black eye (29%)
  

• 4- Sit (12.5%)
  
• 26- Stand (81.3%)
  
• 2- I don’t pee, I urinate (6.3%)
  

• 11- Yes (35.5%)
  
• 20- No (64.5%)
  

• 3- Yes (9.7%)
  
• 27- No (87.1%)
  
• 1- I am on the inside (3.2%)
  

• 9- A must (29%)
  
• 4- It’s a jungle down there (12.9%)
  
• 16- Could go either way (51.6%)
  
• 2- I already use floss (6.5%)
  

• 13- Yes (39.4%)
  
• 14- No (42.4%)
  
• 6- I don’t know (18.2%)
  

• 9- Yes (31%)
  
• 20- No (69%)
  

• 8- Love’em (25.8%)
  
• 5- Hate’em (16.1%)
  
• 1- I am one (3.2%)
  
• 8- Wish they would leave me alone (25.8%)
  
• 7- Huh? (22.6%)
  
• 2- Love this question (6.5%)
  

• 5- No hair on/in ass (15.6%)
  
• 11- Yes (34.4%)
  
• 12- No (37.5%)
  
• 1- Trim/Buzz (3.1%)
  
• 2- Just the hole (6.3%)
  
• 1- Maybe (3.1%)
  

• 5- Hygiene (14.7%)
  
• 4- Ease of access (11.8%)
  
• 8- Aesthetic reasons (23.5%)
  
• 2- No more dingleberries! (5.9%)
  
• 1- It’s a fetish (2.9%)
  
• 5- I can reach, so why not? (14.7%)
  
• 2- For fun (5.9%)
  
• 6- NA (17.6%)
  
• 1- For a genius (2.9%)
  

• 3- Yes (11.5%)
  
• 11- No (42.3%)
  
• 4- Huh? (15.4%)
  
• 1- “Catch” (3.8%)
  
• 5- Seen the movie “Fletch” (19.2%)
  
• 1- Is that like Quidditch? (3.8%)
  
• 1- Like Flavor-Ice (3.8%)

Rock the Vote!!!
Please go to Gay, Dead or Canadian.
In the left navagation bar you will find a poll. Please vote YES!!!
Geno should get more holes in his body!!! Thanks in Advance!!!

we were no sure

As MacWorld SF draws closer...
I am a member of a few Mac email lists. Normally I get 3 to 10 emails
a week from each. Normal question on problems people are having, idea,
and jokes. This week I have been coming to work with no less then 200
emails from the lists. All about rumors going around about MacWorld.
Arguments, ideas, and hopes, going back and forth. There is so much
going on about MacWorld. That MacRumors web site has crashed and is
all kinds of screwed up. God we are geeks!

While emailing with a old high school friend I was reminded of PE class in
high school or middle school. Not sure which. But anyway. We were playing softball and Cathey and I
Were far out in the out-field laying in the grass, making daisy chains and saying
sorry alot as the ball went wizzing past us.

From Ansel to anal...
Last night was quite a night. First started out meeting a friend for dinner.
In the Tenderloin. For all those who know SF. The Tenderloin is not a nice place.
But anyway, we went to Naan&Curry on O'Farrel. It was amazing, it is the
TuLan of Indian food. For all those who really know SF they will understand that.
The food was great, very spicy, and cheap cheap cheap!!! But I now smell like
Indian food the next day, STILL! After dinner we headed over to the SFMoma.
There they were having a showing of The Ansel Adams at 100 show. Most of the
museum was crowded but we got to the Ansel show and there was a HUGE line.
We checked out the rest of the museum and then got in line and slowly worked
our way thru picture after photo, of Yosemite, The Grand Canyon and such.
It was a good showing. Now this is where the story goes downhill, and fast.
We headed to SOMA for a cocktail. Not sure of where to go we ended up
at Powerhouse. Which is a leather "video" bar. It is one of my
fav. leather bars in the city. behind of course the Eagle on Sunday's for the
beer bust. But I regress. There was the strangest group of people at the bar.
A guy in a fringe leather jacket and cowboy boots, singing show tones. A guy
in a fishnet shirt with chunks missing out of it. Hmm... Yummy!!! And on top
of that they were playing the strangest porn. One involved a cops nightstick.
And one consisting of a gay jacking-off while getting a tattoo. There were
long sections where you just saw the guy working on the tattoo. Very strange.
Was a good night. Had good conversation, art, drinky, and porn. God I love SF!

Deciphering me.
Addiction, Buffered, Cascade, Delirium,
Elfish, Flood, Gutsy, Honest, Irritable,
Justice, Kindred, Loyal, Muse, Noisy,
Obsessive, Prudish, Quirky, Recessed,
Sucker, Testy, Unique, Very, Weary,
Xanadu, Yell, Zippy.

Went to see The Royal Temenbaums the other night.
Amazing movie!!! A must see on the big screen. I think I shall go see it again.
I don't want to say much, other then the preview shows the ok funny things.
The movie is much much much funnier. In that sort of dark scary way.

Thought I’d been through this in 1919
Counting the tears of ten thousand men
and gathered them all but my feet are slipping

Ok some strange searches that lead people here.
baby boy see the penile picture
wolves with huge penis
picture of the human geno

Ok at home now, and going to nap.

so far from where i want to be
and you don't know what is inside

Ok this sucks. First day back for the new year and I feel like shit!!!
Got like 2 hours of sleep last night and feel sick to my stomach.
I am going to see about leaving soon.